Today I felt I was being lead towards a day filled with grace and healing, unlike any I have experienced before. I lounged at the pool, swam numerous times under a crystal blue sky, as puffs of clouds lingered. Then, I decided to go for a walk, which unexpectly turned into an all day journey that coverd over 12 miles. The beaches seem to beckon to me to come frolic in the bubbles of the ocean, the sand wrapped itself around my toes and a skyline flickered with pink hues that were mesmerizing! I came upon a pebble pathway that stretched for miles a sandy walkway, encircling me with stones that were kissed by the tropical seas. I was blessed to witness my first true Hawaiian sunset, bursting with vibrant yellows and warming my weary soul. I sat on benches and stared upwards at the heavens, I 'spoke' to my daughter and told her I was here to honour her and reflect on the past 21 years of phenomenal birthdays we shared in together. In the afternoon, I went to a henna place and had my own Wolf paw put above my heart- it represents bravery and courage- two attributes my daughter had. Shayla loved henna tattoos and last year, I bought her own henna kit for her birthday. In the midst of it all, tears were shed tonight and I am sure more are to come. I know today will be one of the heart wrenching days since my babygirl has died. Yet, I am open to the adventures I have planned. For I know, this sweet child of mine is illuminated in every extraordinary thing I am surrounded by.
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